/ 6.8.11 / 32 Comments / blogging
Good, Better, Best... A Time to Shift Gears...
Dear Sweet Friends...
This will be my last 'tea chat' for a while, I'm afraid. And this post is difficult to write. No question about it.
Have you ever had a nagging feeling..that something was not quite right?
That even though, objectively speaking, what you were doing was good..or even wonderful...that it was still not quite what it should be? I once heard a pastor say that if you and your husband don't have peace about a decision..then you shouldn't do it..until you DO have peace. I agree 100%.
The only problem is that Hubby and I never discussed blogging..it just 'happened'. I can't say that I've ever really had complete peace about it even though there were so many GREAT reasons to do it. I've ENJOYED it tremendously but I've always had second thoughts about the appropriateness of the time and energy at this stage of our lives as parents.
Friends have encouraged me not to give up too because my blog helps so many people. If that is the case...then all I can say is that it's all God. And He should get the glory for that. I think bloggers are some of the most giving and wonderful people in the world and I will never think differently about that. You are amazing--really!
The reasons I started blogging...to help others..has not changed at all. And it's the number one reason not to stop. The reason that I need to quit is also completely compelling. Even though my blogging is good and the way I do it is better than it used to be..it is still not the BEST thing I should be doing with the given amount of time in my day.
The heart of problem is not that blogging is 'bad'...it's that it has displaced things that truly are more my responsibility. If there is any truth that has 'come home' to me in this last few months, it's that we all have too many demands on our time.
Each day is precious and we have the responsibility to live deliberately...those 24 hours have to be used very carefully. For me, the season of life, I'm in...there is just an incredible amount of legitimate demand. We have downsized in so many ways..our schedule..our committments..everything! Still...it is not enough because it's not just a matter of time but of focus.
This article says it best....
We have to forego some good things in order to choose others that are better or best because they develop faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and strengthen our families.
Most of us have more things expected of us than we can possibly do. As breadwinners, as parents, as Church workers and members, we face many choices on what we will do with our time and other resources.
I.We should begin by recognizing the reality that just because something is good is not a sufficient reason for doing it. The number of good things we can do far exceeds the time available to accomplish them. Some things are better than good, and these are the things that should command priority attention in our lives.
I do think my problem is partly the amount of time it takes to be 'mom and dad' to five kids from ages 16-26...to teach them, counsel them, listen to them, train and be friends to them (including their spouses and our grandchildren).--It's HUGE. And then, there are our parents..no time to visit..little time to chat. My photos go straight to the blog..not to them. How I regret this part. Blogging is only one of the many reasons I have failed to keep up with them.
What I've found is that most of my emotional 'energy'..
my creativity...and a lot of my 'best' goes to you.
Perhaps it's just my personality type. I honestly don't know. :o) I DO know that I've done my best to keep blogging in it's proper place. How it grieves me to see your kind thoughtful comments and know that I can't, in good conscience, go visit you..or haven't. Then perhaps you are wondering, "Do I care any more?" Am I offended? I know..I could post less and comment more. I've tried every strategy that I can think of.
But really..it's just too little ME spread too thinly. Life changes and the demands of life change. You can only keep so many people and ideas and needs in your mind at one time. Maybe I'm just getting older. (No..for SURE I'm getting older!--almost 50!)The bottom line is that for now...for this stage of life..I no longer have peace about blogging. If I blog at all..I'm going to give it my best and do it as unto the Lord. Somehow, I just can't find a 'middle ground'.
This decision is not about lack of time....but of an improper focus of energy and emotion at this particular season of my life. It's not time to do it 'right now'.
So for now, I do apologize to all of you who haven't heard from me lately. Caroline of Church Sexy..you are often on my mind.. Jill...Ky...Debby... Lorraine...Jaime...Deb...Cindy... Mickey, Rayanne, Gloria... Shona... Trudy...Nana... Needled Mom..Kerrie...Claudia...Anita..Christi...Angela...Mary... honestly the list of wonderful women goes on and on and you are all so REAL and special to me. I regret losing touch with the sweet ladies who used to comment and whom I've lost track of somehow over this last couple of years. I've managed a quick visit to some of you..in particular Jaime, Amy, Gloria, and Maria...but even that has been superficial at best. I hope we keep in touch some. I hate mentioning names because I know I'm leaving someone off.
I can promise, that if you email..I'll write back. No question about that. And I plan to leave the blog up, though I may be deleting some photos of the kids as I go back through the archives, just for safety's sake. I do know, that through Google many people will find the practical help they need here. And that pleases me. :o)
I will be monitering any activity that goes on and if someone leaves a comment, I will try to get to them, especially if they ask a question. I'll be glad to help you in anyway I can as time permits.
But for this season of life, I have to do what I believe to be right. The whole family wholeheartedly confirmed that this is not the season for blogging. One day, I hope to and even PLAN to return. I can't think of a better way to spend 'retirement' than sharing all the Lord has taught me over the years as a wife, mother, and homeschooler.
But for now, we will leave Comin' Home..in the Lord's hands and wait on HIS timing to continue.
Thank you all for your encouragement and for letting me know that my efforts have blessed you. Just know that YOU have blessed me too in a million ways!
I cried... quite a bit... when I finally faced squarely the reality of what had been simmering on the back burner of my mind and heart for so long. I didn't want to go. And I will miss you all very much. But I have to keep a clear conscience...and it hasn't been feeling very clear for a long time now.
Keep up the good work, bloggy friends!
You are making a huge difference in our world!
Perhaps we will meet again in a couple of years. :o) I've got two more years of teaching my youngest...and then..we will see. :o)
3Every time I think of you, I give thanks to my God. 4Whenever I pray, I make my requests for all of you with joy,
5for you have been my partners in spreading the Good News about Christ from the time you first heard it until now.
6And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.
7So it is right that I should feel as I do about all of you,
for you have a special place in my heart.